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Writing - 11.05.2021- Loving up until the End

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Writing - 11.05.2021- Loving up until the End

These are my birthday roses from March.   They are still in my room. I can’t seem to throw them away. I move them from corner to corner, on the window sill or even on the floor. I keep them on display, I keep them safe. I find them still so beautiful, helpless, delicately holding their pose, admiring their nature, to be roses, at every stage of their lives. Drooping slowly, slowly, and yet frozen dead- their bloom alive only as memory. I’ve drawn them, I’ve got lots of photos and I tell them, “You’re still important to me, I...

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Dear Diary - 08.04.2021

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Dear Diary - 08.04.2021

“Even though the battle is fought with my mind, my body responds to it being real, in a very real way. Freezing completely, or shutting down. My eyes will close involuntarily, my legs have pins and needles , like they’re switched off.”

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Writing - 25.03.2021 - Poetry - The Movie

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Writing - 25.03.2021 - Poetry - The Movie

There is such a lot of pain, So much embarrassment and humiliation.Things she can’t believe she allowed-And swallowed All because of what she was taught to believe about herself.And it makes her sick and it makes her sad.The same feelings on spin cycle manifestingAs real life - This matrix, this made-for-TV reality Where writer, director and actorTake the lead in the show:“We All Know Down”Behind Blue eyesshe plays hero and villain ,Jane Doe, a story for the peoplestarring every one -winning and losingRising and falling Overcoming nothing but The battlefield that is the mind.Yet, Feelings tell the tales of livingAnd...

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Writing - “I watch the Waves” - 2020 - Poetry

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Writing - “I watch the Waves” - 2020 -  Poetry

I watch the waves crashing, coming for me, then easing back - becoming the whole body. Sometimes I catch the moment it breaks- I hear the ache as it crashes into itself. It slowly fizzles all the way until that fizz reaches to greet me Right at my feet: Fresh and Pure. And forgiving. A new wave has come and gone. I stay watching. Tomorrow the pull will be different and the waves will be too. It's all water, Moving. I watch, as the One between sea and sky Just as the Moon above sky and sea.

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“Trusting” - 17.10.2020 - Writing

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“Trusting” - 17.10.2020 - Writing

Trust.I'm trusting the yearning to be in this skin.I'm trusting the call to be present in the body.This body is a gift to be unwrappedA body of experiencesA body of sensationsA body of memoriesOf painOf angerOf beauty Of beyond More than a body.More than the story about the body.Maybe I'm just the keeperOf this scared space.The observer within this holy place.A conduit for me to begin again.So-Maybe it isn't just a body. Maybe it's a wayMaybe it's a bridge to the other side.Even if it is not.Even if there was no other side.I want to feel safe in the skin...

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