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Writing - 11.05.2021- Loving up until the End

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Writing - 11.05.2021- Loving up until the End

These are my birthday roses from March.   They are still in my room. I can’t seem to throw them away. I move them from corner to corner, on the window sill or even on the floor. I keep them on display, I keep them safe. I find them still so beautiful, helpless, delicately holding their pose, admiring their nature, to be roses, at every stage of their lives. Drooping slowly, slowly, and yet frozen dead- their bloom alive only as memory. I’ve drawn them, I’ve got lots of photos and I tell them, “You’re still important to me, I...

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Writing - Sweet Regret - Poetry - 2011

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Writing - Sweet Regret - Poetry - 2011

Oh Regret, I see you have come to visit again. We used to spend day and night together, Yes, I remember those times. I was young and you were bitter. Sweet Regret, This time your visits are shorter, Less bitter. Maybe it’s in the weather? Maybe it’s you- You’ve changed for the better. Your friends, Disappointment, grief and heartache have come along too. That’s fine- let them in. We can all gather round and have some tea. I’m so much braver now you see. Let me tell you straight to your face, Regret. I no longer fret. I have lived. I live still, not...

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Looking Back - Art - 5 April 2019

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Looking Back - Art - 5 April 2019

Using Facebook’s nifty activity log, I am reflecting on old works, their meanings and what was happening at the time I created them.  One of the works below were included in the Spring show at Ruth Prowse school of art I attended but unfortunately went missing. I don’t think there is anything more painful than work that goes missing or gets lost or damaged. This especially when you were not even completely present in the creation of it - no memory’s of process but an expression of a truth nevertheless. And when that work goes missing, it is like a...

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SADAG Akeso Clinic Talk - Speaker- 2015

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SADAG Akeso Clinic Talk - Speaker- 2015

The South African Depression and Anxiety Group invited me to speak about my experience living with Bipolar Disorder for their awareness program around living with mental illness. These are the notes from my talk in 2015, at the Akeso clinic in 2015. —————— Good morning everyone. Today I'm going to be a bit selfish and talk about myself. I was very kindly asked to speak about my experience living with Bipolar Disorder.   Two things I want to start off by saying. 1- Everyone experiences bipolar disorder differently which leads me to two - we can all relate to the symptoms....

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