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Dear Diary - 08.04.2021

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Dear Diary - 08.04.2021

“Even though the battle is fought with my mind, my body responds to it being real, in a very real way. Freezing completely, or shutting down. My eyes will close involuntarily, my legs have pins and needles , like they’re switched off.”

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Writing - 25.03.2021 - Poetry - The Movie

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Writing - 25.03.2021 - Poetry - The Movie

There is such a lot of pain, So much embarrassment and humiliation.Things she can’t believe she allowed-And swallowed All because of what she was taught to believe about herself.And it makes her sick and it makes her sad.The same feelings on spin cycle manifestingAs real life - This matrix, this made-for-TV reality Where writer, director and actorTake the lead in the show:“We All Know Down”Behind Blue eyesshe plays hero and villain ,Jane Doe, a story for the peoplestarring every one -winning and losingRising and falling Overcoming nothing but The battlefield that is the mind.Yet, Feelings tell the tales of livingAnd...

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“Trusting” - 17.10.2020 - Writing

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“Trusting” - 17.10.2020 - Writing

Trust.I'm trusting the yearning to be in this skin.I'm trusting the call to be present in the body.This body is a gift to be unwrappedA body of experiencesA body of sensationsA body of memoriesOf painOf angerOf beauty Of beyond More than a body.More than the story about the body.Maybe I'm just the keeperOf this scared space.The observer within this holy place.A conduit for me to begin again.So-Maybe it isn't just a body. Maybe it's a wayMaybe it's a bridge to the other side.Even if it is not.Even if there was no other side.I want to feel safe in the skin...

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“I cannot Be” 2020 Poem by Yvette Hess

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“I cannot Be” 2020 Poem by Yvette Hess

“Mimicking Me” 2020. I like the way the belt, coincides with the edge of the grass line... mirroring the edge, that halfway mark, the constriction at my waist. I split there, the top in pose, trying to tame the wild hair. The bottom finding footing , for what? For grounding?For purpose?Who knows.I lost. I lose still. I lose myself in the storm that is me. Death is so final, and part of me weeps. But the absent is what really gets me at the knees. Absence never makes my heart grow fonder: It weeps while it seeks-A place to fillGentleness...

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I Remember why I never wanted to be a Feminist

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I Remember why I never wanted to be a Feminist

Why strive to be angry , why grow up to see what I thought and was taught was what a feminist was? They were loud, destructive, ungrateful and nothing what I wanted to be when I finally grew up. I was already angry. And I didn’t want to be anymore. Yet, I wonder maybe my anger wasn’t yet free.

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