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    Sober and Awake – in recovery from addiction – the journey continues

    I’m awake. I’m awake and living officially in recovery from addiction. Who knew in recovery from addiction would feel like being very awake Suddenly I’m alive and well. “But who are these people in my life and how did I get here?” “And who the hell am I?” These are some of the questions I ask myself now. I am not sure if it’s normal. I should probably have a proper session with one of my best friends and sponsor, Lynne Huysamen from Living with Addiction and Kaboutjie. She is going for 10 years sobriety on the 2 August. I’m heading to one whole year (which feels like much longer) on the 5…

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    Maintaining a positive attitude in life sober and off psychiatric medication

    You’d think that having a general ‘positive attitude in life’ would be easy. Especially now that you’re sober, right? Well, not entirely. Why life, why? My first solo exhibition at the AVA Gallery is done and dusted. The official review was very well-received by my peers. I sold several works during the exhibition. I got clarity and focus and even got a break from the family and life when I went to Cape Town for the week. And then life happened. Ag come on, life is always happening Yes, I agree. Life is always happening. So? How we react is always changing. It is influenced by the opinions of others, our mood (yes medically…

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    280 days sober – And all I want is a cold beer – Still learning to control alcohol cravings

     Can you control alcohol cravings? I’m not shy to say it. I’m still learning to control alcohol cravings. And I’d bet a few hundred Rands (not dollars guys!) that even recovering addicts would definitely feel the same. Triggers don’t go away, so it makes sense that the coping strategies would still be a problem, right? So much has happened after my last update on where I was on my sobriety journey. To name a few: featured in the Cape Times. I recorded my first Youtube video! Have a look below!     I was also approached by KIS Furniture – an e-commerce platform for architects, interior designers and consumers that…

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    3 months free from alcohol ROCKS – An Update

    I’ve been 3 months free from alcohol. That’s right, 101 days! I find it hard to believe that I managed to last 3 months without alcohol. I say this because I know how deep in the doo-doo I was. I drank daily. But I hear that’s not the the only determining factor. According to Merriam-Webster, “alcoholism” is the ‘continued excessive or compulsive use of alcoholic drinks.’ They go further and throw around words like “neglect of physical appearance” and “chronic”, not forgetting “potentially fatal disorder”. Oh my. So scary! I felt that the definition was so scary that it immediately jolted me into denial. When I drank, it was sexy. Wasn’t it?…

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    Weight no more

    Weight no more? I wish. And I wish my fat away if it’s not obvious already. “Some people have real problems,” I tell myself. Like poverty (more than being broke) or Cancer. Not that Cancer is the worst problem and other invisible illnesses are not problems but you know what I mean. Being fat isn’t the end of the world. Or is it? For most of my life I have been overweight. I wish I could get a prize for that (not edible). And if it couldn’t get any worse, I’d like to add that there were numerous times and long periods where even when I was “thin”, I didn’t…

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    My ongoing journey with Psoriasis

    Heh, Psoriasis? According to WebMD, Psoriasis is described as the following: “Unpredictable and irritating, psoriasis is one of the most baffling and persistent of skin disorders. It’s characterized by skin cells that multiply up to 10 times faster than normal. As underlying cells reach the skin’s surface and die, their sheer volume causes raised, red plaques covered with white scales. Psoriasis typically occurs on the knees, elbows, and scalp, and it can also affect the torso, palms, and soles of the feet.” Look, I’m no stranger to writing about Psoriasis. I addressed it several times on my old site. PS Have a look at my entries here and here. I’m…

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    I used to be

    The post below may come as a surprise to some. If you feel the need to judge, rather keep it to yourself. This is a safe space not only for me to express who I am, but for my readers to feel they can share their most shameful moments. No trolls will be tolerated. ————————————————————————————————————————————— I haven’t been myself lately. Well, to be more accurate, I haven’t been a self I identify with. So much has changed: circumstances, expectations, responsibilities and of course, me. I believe that all these factors have affected who I am today. Obviously, right? My parents, more so my dad, always pushed for my sister and…

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